I am FINALLY 39 weeks pregnant…
(Enjoy some of my pictures at my baby shower as well 🙂 )
((Disclaimer: Even though I am just now posting this post, I wrote it on October 14. I couldn’t focus on exactly what I wanted to say, because I wanted to be very real and honest about what this pregnancy meant to me..especially since it was coming to an end. I was nervous and kept going back and forth with myself to see if I should publish it or not…on top of getting prepared to have my baby. After having my babygirl, here I am now saying “just post it.”))
Finally, and I can’t believe how time has flown by! This is my third pregnancy, and I can tell you that it’s like being pregnant for the first time all over again. SMH. I don’t know if it’s just me or what, but I feel like I forget what pregnancy feels like every time lol. But I guess that’s why they say “every pregnancy is different”. Even though this pregnancy seems like the toughest one so far, it’s a special one too (and yes, ALL of my pregnancies were special, but this one was different).
Me & my amazing husband!
What this pregnancy means to me…
When I first found out I was pregnant, I was NOT happy to be honest. My husband was in much better spirits than I was. But I was more like , “ugh not again…not this soon at least”. You see my first two are 18 months apart, so I was just gettin over that hump where my youngest is getting older and becoming more independent…and then February 2018 (when we found out we were expecting) happened & honestly at that time, we were in a VERY tight situation. So yeah, my 2 soon to be 3 year old and this baby have more of an age gap BUT I was finally planning things for me to do for myself this year…& being pregnant happened. But now, this pregnancy means EVERYTHING to me.
Growth, Success, Hustle, and just another level of life.
Growth because I am honestly not the same woman I was when I first found out I was expecting. I wasn’t has confident as I am now. And I’m not just talking about feeling beautiful and loving myself whole…but being confident with my life, period. Confident in being a mother, a wife, my way of thinking, and my decisions. My way of thinking now is so much different now. I process what’s important, and what isn’t much easier now. I decide easier what gets my energy, and what doesn’t (and that’s including toxic friends, family, situations, etc).
Success simply because, at the end of the day God has blessed my family & I with literally EVERYTHING we could want (NO, it was not easy…stay tuned for that story), and that makes me feel like pure success.
Hustle because once I accepted that I was pregnant again, I felt an urge of hustle come over my life, it really kicked in when we found out we were expecting our first babygirl! I felt like I had to stop procrastinating on the dreams and ideas (this blog being one of them) God had told me about. I felt like I had someone (A mini-me) who was going to look up to me one day, and because of that alone I had to go after my purposes in life. I had to stop being scared, find my faith, and trust in God and just do it, because I have no other choice but to for my family. She simply helped me find my purpose.
So in a nutshell, this pregnancy brought life to my family. Ever since I became pregnant with babygirl, God has truly been favoring us. We’ve brought the truck I’ve wanted with cash, we were blessed with pretty much our dream home, my husband has an awesome position with a great company that allows us (now) to live comfortable on one income with budgeting techniques, I was able to transition into homeschooling our boys, I launched my blog/brand, and we’re just simply living our best life since our little bundle of joy popped in the picture. Last year was a totally a different story for us, so this was an excellent level up for us.
Some pictures of my baby shower below!